Heimskringla 2019

The path ... which leads from who you should not be - to the state that you should become ... the difficult path of loss, pain and frustration. When you realize that all you had to lose is right! The pain you got is a cure! The love that you did not receive is good! Because it was not your time yet ...

The time comes ... Those who laughed and considered you an idiot - silently silent ... You do not feel hatred and anger ... You walked this way .. You know that you had to do it - for yourself. But! What are you feeling now ? When did you go that way, which hardly anyone else could manage?

Do you feel satisfaction from the fact that you did it? ... at least tried ... to combine what cannot be combined ?! In this world ... In this cold and cruel world ...

You see this depth ... and you feel good in this depth ... Alone ... But after all she is that distant, unattainable dream ... so far away ... after all, she did what allowed you to create that what did you create ... Do you need her today?

In general ... having come this long way ... do you need love, A Wolf? When did you have to give so much for this love?

Can you still feel what people call love? Or that a wolf `s nirvana - that golden mean in your soul is a predator .. is this the meaning of what you have done during this time? That you are freed from all emotions and feelings, reaching self-perfection?

Do you need a girl you love - or love? Do you want children ? Do you want to have a family? or ? Or ! Having gone this way, you became wiser and realized that wolf nirvana is the meaning of life? When you are alone - and this is happiness? Or when you are alone - are you and your love? The kind of love you used to go crazy once, and now ...

That endless ocean, those dolphins, then silence, that silence, that intersection of worlds - which you want to see only in your fantasies ... Because reality will destroy your world .. The world of illusions - or the world of a wolf`s nirvana ...

You do not want to leave the world that you created, because it is real. You understand that having achieved what you have dreamed of for so long - and letting this world into your life ... You will destroy your nirvana that you have achieved today ...

Your nirvana, the Wolf, will be destroyed - if the girl for whom you created comes into your life is this wolf nirvana, which exists or not?

What is important to you, Wolf? Is your nirvana the golden mean that makes your life comfortable? Or the love that created this wolf nirvana for you, but from which you want to leave to save your comfort zone? What is important to you, predator? What ???!!!